Stop this high school nonsense.
Stop. it.
Now.
The reason why you are acting this way is cause you are insecure in your own self and relationship. If your man was gonna cheat he would've already done so. And not with me. Sorry.
I am gonna be honest about this: the next time your man dies and everyone you thought were friends of yours - both solo and or attached - drop out of your life in critical need - don't come crying to me. That's how I got and still get treated for it's stupid and sad and pathetic. Immature and lazy.
Actually - come over and I will show you how to be a friend. Yah kill you with kindness.
I'm not gonna say you deserve it, no one does but just remember the old blues song: